Oct 19, 2018
I am Not a Morning Person. And that’s Okay.
I still make the most of the day.
I am not a morning person.
Although, I tried to be one but I couldn’t succeed. I had been suffering with the mental stress of waking up early for months. Every single night I went to bed with an alarm for next morning 5 AM. It is not that I did not listen the alarm or I snoozed it (No, I do not snooze). What I did was I dismissed it and went back to sleep. Can you imagine doing that for months and then crying over the fact that you cannot wake up early?
I am pretty sure it will be mentally excruciating for anyone. For months it felt like I am setting an alarm for my own failure. As time passed and as I noticed the pattern (duh!), in the days that followed I kinda already knew the night before that I will not wake up early tomorrow. So, that is what I did. I did not wake up and I started feeling less guilty about it.
Of course, it made me think.
Do I really need to be a morning person?
I set an alarm and I know I am still not going to wake up. Should I be sad because I know I will fail and I do fail or should I be happy that my expectations are coming true?
Oh wait, did I tell you that I slept around 2 AM every day? I did. Well, now you may think I am stupid because I slept so late and then expected to wake up at 5 AM. Don’t judge me just like that. I was stuck. In a loop.
the_Loop:
Wake up late and then regret about it. Would promise myself to sleep early in the night. A normal day passes and night comes. I go to bed at 10 PM and cannot sleep. Out of frustration I take my phone out. Browse phone until 2 AM. Sleep in expectations to wake up at 5 AM. Wake up late and then regret about it…the_Loop…the_Loop…
Getting back to the point where I expected myself to wake up late even though I set an alarm. To be honest, it relieved my anxiety and stress a great level. I used to hate and curse myself throughout the day for not waking up early and now I am liberated from that. Bad mornings tend to bring about bad days. So, if I could not change my mornings, let me change the mornings. I mean, let me change the tantrums about waking up in the morning.
At first, it felt bad.
Why am I doing this? If I am not a morning person, I will not be successful.
I am not sure if waking up at mornings really makes you successful or not but I do know that if your mornings are great, your day will be great. Here is what I know, which I have experienced not waking up at 5 AM but 9–10 AM:
No matter when you wake up, wake up with a smile and a positive attitude. Keep in mind that you still have a whole day to kick some ass. If you woke up late, it means you will sleep late. And for me there is no better time than night-time to do some quality work. Get up from bed, brush your teeth, take a shower, eat good food and read a great book. Then do whatever you want to.
The difference was as clear as water. For me, it did not matter if I woke up at 5 or 10 AM. If I started my day great, it went great. I read and write good. I am good at my day-job. I am happy and more forgiving.
If you wake up at 5 AM and start your day negatively, what is the point then?
By negative I mean watching TV or Netflix, or playing X-box. Eating junk food in breakfast. Not reading a book. Not exercising. Not praying. Not meditating.
And then claiming to be an early-bird. Yes, you are but what are you gaining from it? Why are you even doing this? If this is not enough, you start a YouTube channel and upload a video with title ‘Waking up daily at 4:30 AM did this to me’ or ‘Waking up at 5 AM daily changed my life.’
BS.
Besides, we already know that not all of us get creative at 5 AM. Some of us are at their sharpest at 2 AM. No, they do not wake up at 2 AM, they sleep at 5 AM. They are pretty successful and happy with their progress.
Times Change; So must you.
Different times demand different us.
I believe that one day I will have to wake up at 5 AM. I mean, when the time will ask for it, I will start waking up early. At that time, if I don’t wake up early, I will lose great things.
As of now, I can do so much with what I am right now. I feel that this is who I am for now, that this time asks for this routine.
If tomorrow, my new life demands a new me, I will change. I must change. I have to change. Period. There is no other option.
If I go with this routine right now, of waking up late, I will have one problem less to worry about. The mental energy I spend there, I can use it on other important things. Less stress.
Right now, I cannot be a morning person.
And that is okay.
